46

Just the moment that the bus turns on starts driving slowly in the tiny streets of downtown toronto , i realized how much this city will be missed and how. Much i belong and i love toronto , but as i said before sometimes letting go is for your own good. Meanwhile lets love Montréal !!!

45

Walking and lighting up the joint ... 3:45 am Me sitting in the middle of the street finishibg the joint , lighting up the cigarette . 3:50 am A house's light turns on .3:51 am Lights off . Me nervous . 3:52 am Me , thinking about montreal and living alone for the first time . 3:56 am ( wow that took long ) I saw the last meteor of a summer night . 3:57 am Sip of my water 3:58 am Walking back home ( i think this is the last time im sitting here at this very moment , may 29th ,2012 . I think about time alot . I'm like the rabbit in wonderland . Carrying watches and clocls and numbers and dates and time around ) 3:59 am I'm walking back . 4:00 am

44

I feel something so strange deep down what if it doesn't go the way I planned for ?

43

Soo i didnt try posting with my phone , it's annoyingly slow but , better than not writing at all you know ... I'm at my crib , smoking the cigarette after my joint and all i did today was grocery clea ing cooking food , cupcakes and kossher like that . I only wish to get away from this uncomfortableness at home ... In 8 days .

42

بي اهميتي ، خيلي ميدونم بخاطر كوكولي اينجوري ولي من از كوكولي قوي ترم اونقد پيشت ميمونم تا كوكولي بره

41

can i get higher than this ?! [ all is full of love ] shouting in my earsss leaving in 9 days , so happy , bought Polaroid camera / went dt with parents / lots of whiskey / lots of pot/ lots of disturbed conversations with my dad . / fucking finally got my period ! / [ next song playing : Royksopp - what else is there ] bought french books and trying to learn at last / I really wanted to talk to maca but she didn't pick up / paid my ocad deposit .phewww / that's about it .

40

i'm starting to drink whiskey and liking it which is very strange since in the past 22 years of my life I was never a fan of whiskey but I'm liking it more than anything else at this phase . keeps me warm inside and out . I had my last glass of J.D with ice @ biistro 4 2 2 with Izk & maca. I love hanging out in random bars with random/great people .

39

mother's day , I didn't do anything for her, just gave her a hug and told her how much i love her . I guess that's what everyone wants, love with a whole heart.

38

You'll be given love You'll be taken care of You'll be given love You have to trust it Maybe not from the sources You have poured yours Maybe not from the directions You are staring at Trust your head around It's all around you All is full of love All around you All is full of love You just aint receiving All is full of love Your phone is off the hook All is full of love Your doors are all shut All is full of love! All is full of love All is full of love All is full of love All is full of love All is full of love Bjork - All Is Full Of Love

37

shoot for 14 hours with a 16 mm camera at semm's with Nadj and Fo , difficult but thrilling experience. I never knew what I was capable of till tonight ...

36

if montreal happens...

35

tonight was the night i took taazaa and four others on a ride to the strip club in back of my car , tonight was the night i found out what the fuck is going on . tonight was the night .

34 - Andrew

picked him up ,  we drove to phoenix , oh my beloved phoenix ... had wine in my car , chugging the wine in the bottle m puff puff passing the joint ,waited in the line got in , this random band came and sang , we're talking about everything to anything and anything to everything . Yann comes , amazing song playing , and he puts his arms around me , and the moment that he looks at me and tells me " can I kiss you ? " and I kiss him , and I giggle sooo much inside . feeling of achievement was the best .

33 - B R Y A N T

full moon , by lakeshore  , baackpaackusa ,  the yellow , red and green , " you babe " , high & high . it's right that they say "life's but a dream " briefly explaining , that's what happened between us , i drove and drove in very early morning .

32

so , I haven't write about my little journey to ottawa and montreal , haven't write about what happened to me and what so called friends around me , haven't write about my big decision of moving to montreal for summer , haven't write about yann tiersen's amazing concert with my lovely company ... haven't write but I will very soon , as long as i can organize this messy mind of mine . lost - season 4 - eposide 4 !!