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زن توی سرم نشسته یه گوشه با یه لباس گشاد و پشت سر هم سیگار دود میکنه
همینطو هم خیره شده به من

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there is a pause ,
there is something in pause in my life that's been bothering me ,
there's a feeling that feels like a pause
I have no idea when that pause started to kick
but definitely could sense the pause ...
I wanna play soon .!

26

so , I've been doing some random dancing/yoga moves in my backyard ... strange view ... I know...

25

life has a new meaning these days
a new path
new phase
why can't it just be September already ?
where I can wake up early in the morning and have breakfast with daddy ,
get ready and take the morning train to downtown , looking artsy with my bike and camera around my neck
having my morning coffee under butterfield and relax and get ready for my class ..
ughh
daydreaming again ...

22

so , we drove to Hamilton . Me & Frankie .
really needed to get away from toronto ,
even for few minutes
I love toronto
but
sometimes,
I feel like there's no more places I can hang out
and it makes me worried ...
I'm so tired of the same streets that I keep on driving back and forth .
same subway trains,
same alleys ,
same home,
same places,
same life ,
same everything,
same me ?!
...

20

daddy turned 60 ,
never experienced 60 so close ,
when did he got so old ?
it's a strange age
so fucking strange ...
it hurts .

19

thirteen ninety one
is
here .


[ how strange ]

17

joints after joins
lighting cigarettes one after another
so , last night was Chahārshanbe-Sūri ( firework feast)
and we went to this really cozy dark park in pickering ,
he held my hand
and
i didn't giggle
so that's it .
done .

13

I'm going to be honest with you and share a secret ,

I dearly and deeply miss having my sisters living with me (us) some mornings I wake up and think that oh they might come back but its just a desolated dream ...
I wish I didn't have a huge age gap with them , or they would not get married so close apart .
I can't get over the fact .
It's hard
and it bothers me every now and then ...

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که بشینی یه گوشه و تو دفترت بنویسی
آ ر و م