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Young girl in the market
Music to the men
When the men leave
Her eyes are red
When her eyes are closed again she sees the dark market of above

And she sings
'They say the most horrible things
But I hear violins, when I close my eyes
I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done'

Young boy in the market
Follows all the men
When the men leave
He's out of his head
When his eyes are closed again he sees the dark market of above

And he sings
'They break the most beautiful things
But I hear violins, when I close my eyes
I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done
I look into your eyes
And I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done'

Center of the sun

Young boy in the market
Sees the girl alone
And asks her
'Have you lost your way home?'
She sings
'You say the most beautiful things, just like my violins'

I look into your eyes
I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done

When I close my eyes
I am at the center of the sun
And I cannot be hurt
By anything this wicked world has done

'Cause
I hear violins
I hear violins

I hear violins
I hear violins

Center of the sun

I hear ...violins

29

quit cigarettes day 3 !!!

28

these days , I just think of love ,
how i missed to be loved by someone ,
doesn't matter who
just someone out there who would actually care about me and love me ,
I'm not exaggerating at all
but I haven't felt loved in a loooong time
I mean
I loved couple of people
but
they never loved me back ...
I guess i'm giving up loving people and starting loving things ...

27

there is a pause ,
there is something in pause in my life that's been bothering me ,
there's a feeling that feels like a pause
I have no idea when that pause started to kick
but definitely could sense the pause ...
I wanna play soon .!

26

so , I've been doing some random dancing/yoga moves in my backyard ... strange view ... I know...

25

life has a new meaning these days
a new path
new phase
why can't it just be September already ?
where I can wake up early in the morning and have breakfast with daddy ,
get ready and take the morning train to downtown , looking artsy with my bike and camera around my neck
having my morning coffee under butterfield and relax and get ready for my class ..
ughh
daydreaming again ...

24

"Dear Nazila:

Congratulations!

Your portfolio presentation was strong and your application for admission to OCAD University has been successful. On behalf of the university, I am delighted to extend the offer of admission to the First Year, Bachelor of Fine Arts program in the Faculty of Art. "


Today , will always stay in my memory ,
march 29th,2012
the day I got accepted to  "OCAD"
never been this happy
They finally adopted me !



Today is the first day of the rest of my life .