26

so , I've been doing some random dancing/yoga moves in my backyard ... strange view ... I know...

25

life has a new meaning these days
a new path
new phase
why can't it just be September already ?
where I can wake up early in the morning and have breakfast with daddy ,
get ready and take the morning train to downtown , looking artsy with my bike and camera around my neck
having my morning coffee under butterfield and relax and get ready for my class ..
ughh
daydreaming again ...

24

"Dear Nazila:

Congratulations!

Your portfolio presentation was strong and your application for admission to OCAD University has been successful. On behalf of the university, I am delighted to extend the offer of admission to the First Year, Bachelor of Fine Arts program in the Faculty of Art. "


Today , will always stay in my memory ,
march 29th,2012
the day I got accepted to  "OCAD"
never been this happy
They finally adopted me !



Today is the first day of the rest of my life .

23

I'm really pissed .
why can't I just have my acceptance already ?

22

so , we drove to Hamilton . Me & Frankie .
really needed to get away from toronto ,
even for few minutes
I love toronto
but
sometimes,
I feel like there's no more places I can hang out
and it makes me worried ...
I'm so tired of the same streets that I keep on driving back and forth .
same subway trains,
same alleys ,
same home,
same places,
same life ,
same everything,
same me ?!
...

21

Capricorn's Daily Horoscope : March 24, 2012 "You're not known for associating with dull people. In fact, if someone isn't funny, interesting or intelligent, they shouldn't expect to see you again. Prepare to add a name to that esteemed list."

I absolutely got my answer towards you with my horoscope :)

20

daddy turned 60 ,
never experienced 60 so close ,
when did he got so old ?
it's a strange age
so fucking strange ...
it hurts .

19

thirteen ninety one
is
here .


[ how strange ]

18

Spring is here all of a sudden ,
never seen Toronto this warm in middle of March .
this morning when I was standing by my window looking at the sunshine and feeling like it's summer , I had the most nostalgic deja vu .I can't even describe how I felt but everything made sense at that moment , life had a meaning in a glance , the vibe that entered my body from toe to head made my want to run in big circles and scream .
all of these feelings ,emotions and different phases that I go through is happening because at this moment of my life there is absolutely nothing stabled , everything is all over the place ... and I'm just wondering that when ? when will all these stress and instability will go away ... like now , now that it's 6:48 AM and I'm still awake and thinking...

17

joints after joins
lighting cigarettes one after another
so , last night was Chahārshanbe-Sūri ( firework feast)
and we went to this really cozy dark park in pickering ,
he held my hand
and
i didn't giggle
so that's it .
done .

16

she turned 29 today ,
and words cannot describe how much i love her .

15

tonight was strange
tonight,
everything had a meaning .

14

So, I lost my head a while ago

But you've seem to done no better

We set fire in the snow

It ain't over, I'm not done


Some do magic and some do harm

I'm holding on, holding on

I'm holding on to a straw


Who is the Alpha and What is made of cloth?

How do you say you're sorry?

And there's nothing to be afraid of


Is it dark already? How light is a light?

Do you laugh while screaming?

Is it cold outside?


One thing I know for certain

Ohhhhh I'm pretty sure,

It ain't over I'm not done.

13

I'm going to be honest with you and share a secret ,

I dearly and deeply miss having my sisters living with me (us) some mornings I wake up and think that oh they might come back but its just a desolated dream ...
I wish I didn't have a huge age gap with them , or they would not get married so close apart .
I can't get over the fact .
It's hard
and it bothers me every now and then ...

12

که بشینی یه گوشه و تو دفترت بنویسی
آ ر و م

11

Sitting as high as I can in total darkness ,
right in middle of the couch
so much going in my mind .
life seems like a bubble to me ,
it's funny how i feel like any second someone will touch that bubble and I'll be kicked out of that dreamy , bubbly world .
I love living in bubbles...

10

Just got home . a good night , good music , good company , what else do I need to be happy , sometimes I feel like I miss happiness by glance , like I know it's out there for me but I just don't look clearly .
Sharam was amazing , saw bunch of people that I wanted/didn't want to see.
partied with people that I never partied before .
at this moment I'm the drunkest , highest and happiest girl .
good morning Toronto !