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Spring is here all of a sudden ,
never seen Toronto this warm in middle of March .
this morning when I was standing by my window looking at the sunshine and feeling like it's summer , I had the most nostalgic deja vu .I can't even describe how I felt but everything made sense at that moment , life had a meaning in a glance , the vibe that entered my body from toe to head made my want to run in big circles and scream .
all of these feelings ,emotions and different phases that I go through is happening because at this moment of my life there is absolutely nothing stabled , everything is all over the place ... and I'm just wondering that when ? when will all these stress and instability will go away ... like now , now that it's 6:48 AM and I'm still awake and thinking...

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joints after joins
lighting cigarettes one after another
so , last night was Chahārshanbe-Sūri ( firework feast)
and we went to this really cozy dark park in pickering ,
he held my hand
and
i didn't giggle
so that's it .
done .

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she turned 29 today ,
and words cannot describe how much i love her .

15

tonight was strange
tonight,
everything had a meaning .

14

So, I lost my head a while ago

But you've seem to done no better

We set fire in the snow

It ain't over, I'm not done


Some do magic and some do harm

I'm holding on, holding on

I'm holding on to a straw


Who is the Alpha and What is made of cloth?

How do you say you're sorry?

And there's nothing to be afraid of


Is it dark already? How light is a light?

Do you laugh while screaming?

Is it cold outside?


One thing I know for certain

Ohhhhh I'm pretty sure,

It ain't over I'm not done.

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I'm going to be honest with you and share a secret ,

I dearly and deeply miss having my sisters living with me (us) some mornings I wake up and think that oh they might come back but its just a desolated dream ...
I wish I didn't have a huge age gap with them , or they would not get married so close apart .
I can't get over the fact .
It's hard
and it bothers me every now and then ...

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که بشینی یه گوشه و تو دفترت بنویسی
آ ر و م