66

[whiskey , bahman and peymanyazdanian]
strange feelings
i stopped it
its strange how you can love someone so much and the next second " boom "
its gone !
i just dont understand the whole point of love
i mean everything is changeable
if everything can change
he was right
if people can fade away so easy from each other's eyes
then how can someone trust loving
i guess you just have to take the risk
but what if i dont want to go through the harm and pain ?
what if i want to live my life alone and not stress about someone else's feelings and emotions ?
what if i am scared of commitment and responsibilities ?
strange yet exciting and time consuming lol

65

i just miss writing

miss being creative when i was able to just transfer every little thing that would happen in my head to my hands .

its hard when you stop for a while 

you stop to express 

you rather have a photo image 

but that doesnt work for you since im getting very forgetful 

I mean i'm getting as bad that i don't even want to write any essays anymore . 

i'll get to  the habit again ...

64

rebound ,
the saddest word that one can say .
when you basically replacing one person with another .
and that replacement is not pleasant at all .
and i'm going through a rebound that is more like killing myself slowly
everything reminds me of someone else and i have to pretend by smiling and trying to act like nothing happened .
nothing happened ?
everything happened for the past two weeks .

tabarnak

63

when i dropped
him
off
i
cried
even though
i
promised
him
not to cry anymore for
him
i
could not resist the tears
i
am confused
about
his
love
i
told
him
that
he
lost
my
love and
he
told
me
that
he
did not deserves it anyways
...
and that's when you realize life is not that hard but people are confuse...

it's a big world and we all run in big circles

62

school days
sleepless days
lovey dovey days
m aa d m e n days
high days
excited/lost/enchanted & at last happy !

61

7 am
yonge and sheppard
i hate you

60

sitting in my studios floor ,
listening to a m elies soundtrack
life is strange
school is different
today i did some graffiti
im working on my colour project now .
im isolated and feel like there are no outer world outside my room
it doesnt make me sad anymore
loneliness is becoming a  part of me ,
that part of me that i enjoy
enjoying spending time alone
most of the time i dont find people interesting
much of them bore me
and the rest ...
too annoying to even consider
but this loneliness is aright
i get more time to observe
...