85

my heart is about to stop
and i dont want to cry
i have the worse feeling about tonight
today
kensing
everything
was weird today
i have the same feeling that i had during beecroft trip on shrums ,
same feeling of emptiness of life
i feel super emotional and empty about every damn point in my life .
today was a strange day after a long time
so much happened in one day and im not used to .
today was the day i met florencia after 5 months
saw samira for the first time
saw setareh after a year
saw saba for the first time
and
saw how fucked up my love life is .

84

زن توی سرم نشسته یه گوشه با یه لباس گشاد و پشت سر هم سیگار دود میکنه
همینطو هم خیره شده به من

83

boardsofcanada days and [ me ] being the way i hate
i desolate myself by unnecessary events that happen one after another and stop me from having what pleasures me the most .

there is something that stops me and i'll find that god damn thing and destroy it .

82

i stopped liking myself .

81

غمگین ترین رابطه زندگیم و باهاش داشتم
حس بین زمین و هوا
آخ

80

دارم میمیرم از درد

از بدن درد 

78

i miss writing
miss it miss it miss it
the days where i could just write down with out any censorship and ideas would flow in my mind nonstop
i had stuff to talk about
i could express
but now days
i just fucking nag about the fact and i can't fucking write
what is with me
that keeps me away so much with writing ..?