85

my heart is about to stop
and i dont want to cry
i have the worse feeling about tonight
today
kensing
everything
was weird today
i have the same feeling that i had during beecroft trip on shrums ,
same feeling of emptiness of life
i feel super emotional and empty about every damn point in my life .
today was a strange day after a long time
so much happened in one day and im not used to .
today was the day i met florencia after 5 months
saw samira for the first time
saw setareh after a year
saw saba for the first time
and
saw how fucked up my love life is .

84

زن توی سرم نشسته یه گوشه با یه لباس گشاد و پشت سر هم سیگار دود میکنه
همینطو هم خیره شده به من

83

boardsofcanada days and [ me ] being the way i hate
i desolate myself by unnecessary events that happen one after another and stop me from having what pleasures me the most .

there is something that stops me and i'll find that god damn thing and destroy it .

82

i stopped liking myself .

81

غمگین ترین رابطه زندگیم و باهاش داشتم
حس بین زمین و هوا
آخ

80

دارم میمیرم از درد

از بدن درد 

78

i miss writing
miss it miss it miss it
the days where i could just write down with out any censorship and ideas would flow in my mind nonstop
i had stuff to talk about
i could express
but now days
i just fucking nag about the fact and i can't fucking write
what is with me
that keeps me away so much with writing ..?

77

school classes are done

one term went by so fast 

the best four months of my life passed 

first semester at o c a d u 

thank you 

i mean it 

./

76

lost interest.

74

get rid of of anything that will destroy you ...

73

so much on my mind that i can't express
deep down in my heart there's something that keeps on telling me that its wrong
but
it feels so right
that i dont want to think about any other thing about it
i was waiting for this day
that you would love me
that they hasnt come yet
but it will.
or i will get ruined
sitting at a corner and waiting
like always